Archive for December, 2005

29
Dec

return to innocence

E007624 I remember a lot of things about my childhood. I had a pretty sporty childhood, it’s a wonder why I never made it to any serious sports as I grew older. I guess sports were simple back then, for me at least. All the games I played consisted of running around, playing tag of all sorts with my cousins and other playmates. Some games were girly, most were boyish. I played all sorts of games, depending on my mood and whatever the situation permits.

             I remember waking up early in the morning to catch the sun rising over the mountains. My cousins and I, still groggy from sleep, would head to silangan (a short distance from our houses) to catch a glimpse of the rising sun. Silangan is really a vast cornfield, sometimes it was a rice field. We’d walk all the way up a low hill, the highest we could go. Then as the sun slowly rises, we’d turn our backs to it. It’s funny how we struggle to get out of bed in time for the rising sun only to turn our backs on it when it finally rose over the mountains. The oldies say sunshine is good for the body. I just didn’t understand why our backs (they say it’s for our lungs). But what the hey, that’s just how it goes when we were kids.

             I remember going back home after sun-bathing and having breakfast. In this day and age, I’d probably go back to bed and get more of my deserved sleep, considering the blasted insomnia I suffer from. Back then, going back to bed after warming up under the sun is like putting your swimsuit on and never swimming. After breakfast, we kids gather round our toys (ranging from a jump rope, jack stones, Barbie dolls, rubber bands, Chinese garter, etc.) and prepare for the day’s top priority in the itinerary: play time.    

I remember playing girly games with my cousins. These took place in my house, since our paraphernalia were stored there. We’d go over the items before we start. Little pots and pans, check. Ingredients (most biscuits and candies), check. Little plates and glasses, check. Now, we’re cooking! The session would go on for a few minutes. Back then, 30-minute meals were unheard of. In fact, we were better than Rachel Ray. We’d be finished cooking AND eating in half an hour. Then, after we’re “full”, we’d go play with our dolls. But this doesn’t last long because everyone knows it’s better to play with your dolls alone, where you can control your dolls, give them voices and names, and think up of a situation – all by yourself. This isn’t much fun when you’re in a group, because ideas tend to clash and arguments as to what profession your doll is can result to fight, and even tears. So after a rather boring doll play, we’d take it to the next level. We’d go outside to meet the boys!

             I remember playing really boyish games as a kid, and going home really dirty mwahaha! I used to play tumbang preso, agaw base, patintero (which I hate – I don’t know why), syato (where you flick a stick as far as possible, and the farthest distance from the base wins – sorry if it’s vague, I’m not good in describing such things), supo (it’s a game where you draw a square on the ground and put bottle caps inside it, and the goal is to try to knock as many bottle caps outside the square as possible using a flat piece of stone), touch ball (but we used hard plastic ball, and you really have to be good dodging the ball because damn, it hurts!), marbles, rubber bands, the list goes on.. I remember biking with my cousins. Sometimes, we’d take turns, climbing up the hill and biking down as fast as possible (gosh, it felt sooo great).. and sometimes we’d race each other down the hill. When a new subdivision opened up nearby, we had a blast biking ’till it’s dark already. I remember one cousin who’s driving a sidecar and still managed to hit the gutter. Ouch!

             I remember playing piko (hopscotch) with my cousins, and we would team up in pairs. If memory serves me right, May and I – we’re the team to beat bwahaha! We’d also play another version, but I can’t remember what it’s called (arrghh!). Jerome, if you’re reading this, ask Gail what it was! Haha! We’d play the traditional sungka, where each team not only aims to win, but also aims to get the biggest and the most beautiful shells! God, that’s frustrating.

             I remember taguan, habulan, langit-lupa and a lot more. It was a pretty athletic childhood alright. But all in the name of fun. Gee, we had so much fun I wish we can play again. But the original “kids” aren’t complete anymore. And when we do get complete, we’d be too busy catching up on things that we don’t have time to play anymore. But one thing we always have time for: it’s reminiscing the good (and bad) times we had playing those games. =) I guess the little kids in us will always live on… no matter how old we get.

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28
Dec

quotable quotes of 2005

          My insomnia is keeping up with the holidays. I was up until 5 in the morning, and though I had a blast surfing the net, it’s not so fun when you get used to dozing off just as everybody else is waking up. Pfftt! Oh well, life’s like that.

          There were so many issues of Reader’s Digest lying around (I really should subscribe, a.s.a.p.!) and while I was perusing the latest issue, I came across a quotable quote that hit me. “The best of us must sometimes eat our words.” (J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets) Hmmm…

          Anyhoots, I decided to have my own list of quotable quotes for the past year.. To protect the identities of people involved, I’ll leave them unnamed. Go figure.. =p

          Can you guess who said these?!

Quote

January: “Just forget about me.”

February: “I nominate Jazzy for President.

March: “Ibibigay ko sayo ang susi ng bahay ko. Pag may problema ka, puntahan mo lang ako sa bahay ko.” (or something to that effect)

April: “Hindi pa tayo ready..”

May: “Lasenggang pokpokita!”

June: “Isipin na lang naten na dream un..”

July: “I’m solid behind Jazzy and I’m solid behind the Execom!”

August: “Kelangan pa bang may luha?!”

September: “Can I have a drink of your beer?” (said to a total stranger)

October: “Magdabog ka.. Sumigaw ka..Para makahalata!”

November: “Butete ‘yun, Jazzy!”

December: “Ikakasal nako.”

27
Dec

circumcision and brown ube

Who: HS tropa

What: "reunion"

When: day after Christmas, 9am "sharp"

Place: anywhere our feet take us

Itinerary: lunch, movie, and um.. bahala na..

As usual, I was late. Hahaha! I arrived at the meeting place an hour later (tsktsk!). Well, at least I wasn’t the only one they were waiting for. Ruby was late too! And since it was her first time being tardy, we decided to wait for her instead of meeting her at the mall. The famous line "On the way nako!" made us believed she’s already around the corner. Well, much to Ivan’s dismay, she wasn’t really on the way and we ended up going to the mall without her. She later explained how she had a hard time getting a ride, which we all understood, but being the mahirit that we are, we didn’t let her get away with it. Bwahaha!

While waiting for Ruby, we decided to eat pig out at Tokyo Tokyo. By the time she got there, we were already full. I was a little drowsy from the heavy meal (I also had my favorite California Maki) and the idea that I had two cups of rice didn’t help at all. Anyway, full and burping all over the place, we headed to the cinemas.

I would’ve killed someone had they decided to watch Enteng Kabisote (I don’t know, but I hate Kristine Hermosa too much to see her on-screen even with Vic Sotto). Good thing, everyone agreed to watch that Chinese chevers comedy, Ako, Legal Wife. Ivan promised me he’d treat me for the movie. Now, I wish he just treated me for lunch. Oh-So-Rich Henry decided to treat all nine of us to the movie (big time Henry, that guy).. hehe! (Ivan, you still owe me a movie! And believe me, you won’t get away with it mwahaha!) =p

The movie was okay. We had some amplified laughter over some scenes. I just wish they sang a more popular song at the end of the movie. It was completely unknown (at least to us) it was almost funny trying to guess the title. I’m not really in the mood for a film review, so for those interested, it’s still showing.. (mag-plug ba?!)

After the movie, we decided to go to Carlo’s place (he was so persistent that we drop by their place after the movie… hmm, maybe he was dying to feed us haha). We were riding a jeep, it was jam-packed and so we contented ourselves doing the small talk with each other. I just don’t know what came over Ruby (a future nurse) that she decided to talk about circumcision. I forgot what topic we were on, but she just declared she already circumcised a kid. Huwaaat?! She tends to really get carried away, and that day was no exception. She went on with the different cuts she knew (ugh, do you really have to?!) and even asked Ivan what kind of cut he had… *kaderz* So much for someone who’s going to be a respected nurse someday.

Bennett_dragondinnerFast-forward to Carlo’s place. After the usual catching-up on things (haha, no hot-seat for me!) we gather round the table for another round of eating. Now, do we really have to pig out everytime we get together?! How often do you want to meet every month? Hehehe! Anyway, there were different kinds of food, and we started digging in. The silence was eerie.. I was wondering, are we that hungry?! I mean, I had three helpings of rice, Ivan had three BBQ’s, and who knows what the others had! Well, I guess I was starving because I didn’t catch the part when Carlo was discussing about the kilawin (he was telling everyone how his mom used the pressure cooker blah blah, and how it turned out to be like kulawo). When they were eating sinukmani (brown rice cake) for dessert, I commented on how the ube turned brown. Apparently, I was pertaining to the rice cake and NOT the kilawin. Damn, it was hilarious alright! I mean, a brown ube? And pressure-cooked ube? Puhleease! Heehee! *ooopps*

After the hearty meal, Ivan and I went outside for a smoke. Well, I did. He didn’t. I was too full, I needed a puff. And we talked about things, blah, blah, blah. He even told me to write a blog about that day (well, you got your wish, dear). =p

I thought we were going home after we left Carlo’s place, but lo and behold, we went to his cousin’s place to (you guessed again) eat! Gosh! Even the candle was shaped like a cupcake!!! Oh well, the fruit salad was great. Real fruits, mind you. (note: I didn’t know you can put fresh orange slices in it) So once again, *burp* heehee! It’s a good thing booze wasn’t on the day’s itinerary (some other day, people!) or else, we’d be puking all over the place from too much food and alcohol.

I went home tired, but still so full heehee! Thanks guys for the food, fun and laughter. Next year, we’d ALL be working, so let’s hit Hongkong, ayt?! Big time! =p

22
Dec

what’s in a fishy holiday?!

Fish *For a lot of reasons, I don’t feel this year’s Christmas. But before I start ranting, I have one thing to say: no matter how fucked up I am feeling right now, I’m trying my best to compose myself and reflect on the true meaning of this season. I’m glad there are things that keep my cool (except the chilly breeze)…and here’s my top ten:

1. bum around. haha, as if I didn’t get enough bumming around in elbi… it’s the season to be jolly, so the song goes. but for me, it’s the season to stay at home and burrow in my room. who knows what happens in my room.. =p if my walls could talk, I’d probably get the worst blackmail ever…

2. play scrabble with the oldies. in our family, scrabble is serious business heehee.. we can stay up until 2 in the morning just playing scrabble… haha! we also engage in multi-tasking while arranging the tiles: a) eat (haha pig-out!).. oh, I love the cookies-n-cream polvoron!; b) watch TV (nothing beats a good, cheesy koreanovela when you’re waiting for Daks to come up with her word heehee); c) read newspapers and the latest RD (useful when the oldies’ noses are buried in the dictionary).. Maya, we need a new strategy harhar! Daks, put the dictionary down heehee.. Tita Mommy, the reigning winner… but not for long! =p

3. go online for HOURS. haha! ’nuff said. :)

4. preparations for the family reunion. my aunt fatty’s favorite time of the year. her time to shine. hahaha! our family reunion, usually held before the end of the year is one of the highlights of this season, well at least for her heehee! she’s the queen of impersonations and you guessed it, the food relay! ;> hmm, i wonder what’s in store this year…

5. get-togethers with friends - old and new. sometimes, it’s a swimming party (yep, on a cold December night!). sometimes, it’s food session at a friend’s house. sometimes, it’s booze galore over at my friend’s apartment. sometimes, it’s a Christmas party with HS barkada at my place. FUN all the time.

6. oops, time to hit the books! as much as I want to avoid my Med Micro notes, i CAN’T and i SHOULDN’T! gee, first thursday of the year of the doggie and i’ll be sweating it out on an exam! huwaaahh!

7. money, money, money!!! nope.. not for me. we need big-time bucks for Genesoc’s upcoming Genetics Camp. hmm, anyone knows a bank i could rob? hahaha!

8. sleep all day!!! nah, still no luck getting rid of the stupid insomnia… but at least i get to zzzzz all day haha! no alarm clocks ringing.. no wake-up calls from yen.. this is the life! =p

9. load up those carbs. yep, be my Oinkee self. it’s been a family tradition to have a BIG Christmas lunch at one of our lolo’s place. this year, two dear Grandpas decided to join forces. hmm, 4 generations of Quiaonzas (my mom’s side).. there’s food for everyone. go figure!

10. gimik chevers with cousins. hmm, it’s the season for the traditional Tagaytay escapade hahaha! can’t wait to go bowling again… (i’m beginning to think this is a must-play sport every December, heehee!) with Barbie’s new wheels, yo cuzs, where to?! =p

Merry Christmas!

off-topic p.s. hi to yen, see you in YM in a while hahaha! ;>

18
Dec

‘T.L.T. (’tong linggong to!)

Damn, it’s been another weekend… and what else is there to look forward on a weekend but those sometimes-cheap-but-really-intriguing showbiz talk shows. Hmm, I think I’ve had more than the recommended dose of (all-together now!) The Buuuzzz and those high-pitched gay voices doing the voice-overs. And yeah, not to mention the shady trio who give the juiciest DA WHO’s that you can’t help but make patol to the blind items… hahaha! Okay, so with me still high with this Fayatollah Fever, might as well sum up the week that was..

Welcome Batch Permease! After the bitin finals where it’s my time to shine (come on, a one-woman team for a quitting station, san ka pa?!), the pleiotropy boys are finally in. Tell me, did you guys just did a whole cheering routine for your batch dance? Bwahaha! Go Red! Musta naman ang matching outfits naten? Heehee! I must say, it’s been years since there was pleading in BioSci… damn, I miss the night when we were doing it in the Gazebo. Harhar! Nevertheless, welcome brods! (p.s. Aries, wanna be a penguin-in-law? hahahaha!)

Boycott brouhaha: all I can say is I’m so glad I’m not involved hahaha! Whew! Come January, we’ll see what’s what hehehe… Just chill, you guys. :)

Icebag 5: Hmm, tragic love stories. And boy, can I relate… hehehe! Oh, and he was there. Honestly, I didn’t know how to react when I saw him. It’s been a week since we last saw each other. And no, the text lines aren’t burning either. No communication whatsoever. I don’t know if he misses me (from the looks of it, I guess not). I don’t know if I miss him (well, sometimes I do). I don’t know what to say when someone asks me why I am cold. I don’t know how he’s doing (I hope he’s fine). I don’t know if we’ll stay this way until Christmas. All I know is, it all started innocently… three years ago.

Alumni Homecoming: Thank you for all those who came. =) I can’t remember the last time I was so full. Hahaha! So much food to digest… *burp* heehee! And although I was close to being sick that night (too much stress I guess), I enjoyed the night… or rather, the early morning concert hahaha! Honey, shout for joy!Yen, punkz not dead! Pau, you’re such a family man hehe… Ravene aka Cover Girl, you’re the real Latina (adios, Thalia!)… Imong, kunwari ka pa!!! Tell me when you will be mine.. hahaha!!! Move over Lou Bega, Booty Fan is here! Everybody, someday we can all sing No More Rhyme the way Cga does heehee.. dream on! After all, it’s in the genes. =p

Home sweet home (part1): what do you know, first night home and I’m home alone. Not bad. I can hurkey all I want and no one will care. I can smoke even in the living room, and no one will complain. I can do anything I want and no one will bother me. But there’s one thing I can’t do. I can’t help but miss my Lola. Until now, I’m still so not used with her being gone. Awww..

Home sweet home (part2): Condo, prepare for a major makeover! Hahaha! ;>

Haaaay, grabeh the week that was! But there’s always more… lots more… Lahat totoo! Dito lang sa.. Ooops! This is no showbiz chevers heehee! One week to go.. Merry Christmas everyone! ;>

12
Dec

a nostalgic afternoon

Pain wraps my whole being, making it a huge effort to even heave a big sigh. Tears threaten to gush down my already tear-strained cheeks every time a thought of you cross my mind. To smile is an arduous endeavor, for I can only smile after a million drops of bitter, poignant tears. My heart, I fear, has stopped beating momentarily, probably because of too much ache. I feel like every emotion was sucked out of me, leaving only hurt and anguish. And now, everyday is a battle to keep myself from breaking down.

Sometimes I feel like crying my guts out, until there’s no tears left to flow anymore. Sometimes I feel like shouting at the top of my lungs, out of sheer frustration and pain, in hopes of releasing all the bottled emotions inside me. Sometimes I feel like staring to space for God knows how long. Sometimes I feel like talking to someone about what I’m going through, hoping that someone would identify with my dilemma. Sometimes I feel like going out, kicking ass and having fun, in dire hopes that I would somehow forget him – even for a fleeting moment. 891611001

But most of the time, I wish I were numb – so I can’t feel the sting that my heart has been suffering from. I wish I were insensitive to the invisible ache that seems to drive me to madness. I wish I were robbed of the capacity to remember, because right now, I’d give anything NOT to remember the memories of the past – good and bad. I wish I could drown myself in alcohol and nicotine, if doing it means I could forget.

But how can I forget when everywhere I look, there’s an unseen switch that triggers my memories back to him? How can I forget when even in my dreams I am hunted by the face that I’d been trying so hard to erase from my mind? How can I detach myself from the emotion that I’ve kept for so long? How can I move on when a huge part of me finds it hard even to let go?

For a loving heart, holding on means life. For a broken heart, tears are the water that keeps it alive and solitude is the air that it breathes. For a sore heart, dwelling in pain and grief is a means of getting by. For a wounded heart, letting go is the battle to be won. For a hardheaded heart, moving on is the lesson to be learned. For a dying heart, goodbye is the final beat. And when the heaBa16740_1rt beats no more, it will never love the way it did before…