Archive for January, 2006

30
Jan

hmmm…

Dw_1 Just had a meeting with the Genesoc’s Execom. And boy, do we have a surprise for the Genes! Nyahahaha!! We thought it’d be nice to treat everyone after the hectic weeks heehee.We’re hoping for a complete attendance, because we’ve prepared a mini-program just for that night. So far, the Genes are confirming their presence one by one. Huwaw! (note: basta pagkain talaga, ever present ang Genes, bwehehe!) Kidding aside, I really hope this surprise-treat thingie will be a success. We’ve spent the whole meeting brainstorming for ideas. Hmm, I guess we’ll just see. =)

Anyway, Karlo and I had a blast last night. After weeks of delay, our movie marathon finally pushed through. And despite the topak DVD copy of American Pie Band Camp, we had our share of laughter nonetheless. It was hilarious haha! Next time, we’ll finish watching Sassy Girl (yeah, hindi pa pala nya napapanuod un, kamusta naman diba?! hehe). Toyo, ciao next time! =p

28
Jan

yes, delete

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am i fishy or what?!

I’ve just deleted a comment made about my recent post, analyze that. Sorry bakla, but I’ve been doing my best not to name-drop here. There are already so much quarrels around, we don’t need to extend it to cyberspace. Everything you said was taken note of. And as I’ve said, I don’t hold grudges. Past is past. And I’ll never cease understanding you (although there are times I’d love to kill you talaga), because you’ll always be the Undin we’ve all come to love. =) mwah!

28
Jan

back to the future

(This post is inspired by a text conversation with Oinkee about the movie Back to the Future and the what-ifs of time travel.)

Job20romijn20summit20for20the20future If you could travel back in time, where would you go? Would you go back in time when the Titanic sank? Or would you alter the course of events and save it instead? Would you go back in time to unbreak a heart, and spare yourself from the agony called heartache? Or will you just let it be? Hmmm. Tough choice.

Personally, there are a lot of things in the past that I want to change (in my life, that is). Not that I regret those things that happened to me, it’s just that maybe I would’ve done (and felt)  better had this thing happened, or that thing didn’t happen, blahblahblah. But then again, it’d just defeat the purpose of what I have lived for so far.

I have one thing in mind that I’d most probably change, given the chance. And for the life of me, things would’ve been better, and yes, easier. No worries. No biggie. Then again, I have a question: If I can change that one fleeting moment, everything I have come to know right now, and everything I have learned so far (yeah, emotional imbroglio and all that shit) - everything from that point on, all that will not even count? Huwaaaat?!?!

Suddenly all these shit about time travel isn’t that exciting at all. Sure, it’s a blast to travel back in time. But will it be just as incredible if you just change everything? Karlo and I have always agreed that no matter what bullshit you experience in life, it’s always the lesson that is important. And really, how many times have we learned? So you see, if you will change a moment in your life, it goes without saying that you’re unlearning the lessons as well, right?

Hmm, I’d better sleep. Insomnia is killing me!

28
Jan

analyze that

It was a Thursday night and I’m having too much to drink (or so I think). I wasn’t in party mode so we settled to the café for a (hopefully) relaxed atmosphere. Little did I know of the looming string of confrontations ahead. To cut to the chase, we talked. It was civil, but it was enlightening. I finally let out my sentiments and we settled things out. It was a big WHEW at the end. I’m not really the type of person who holds grudges, and for my part, everything’s over and done with. At least I was able to speak my mind, and hopefully, in time, though things will never be the same again, we’d be able to find a way.

The night wasn’t over (just yet). Halfway through the night, I was crying. I cried for a lot of reasons – even reasons I can’t even remember, and don’t really see the point in crying for them. It was just an emotional night. But it was more of an outraged night. Freakin’ irate! I’ve never heard such hurtful and angry words being spoken. What the?! And I thought it’d be fucking civil. Well, I guess people can’t really control their emotions (and tongue) once face-to-face with the person they least want to be face-to-face with. If only looks could kill, more than two people should’ve died that night. The least I could be thankful for is that I wouldn’t be one of them.

I’ve always complained about the now infamous DoTA boys who always manage to annoy the shit out of me. But that night, I would’ve preferred being stuck in a computer shop with a hundred DoTA boys and I wouldn’t even care. Gawd, the shouting was just freaky, even the boys could get a few tips. It would’ve been shouting at its full blast, but thanks to some people who still maintained their cool, it was minimized by a decibel. Yeah, you bet it was bullshit!

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: Pride will get anyone nowhere. I think what I wrote in my previous post will apply to this. The time you spent with someone (romantically or in the name of friendship) is not proportional to the level of how special that person is. Sure, it’s still a different thing when you’ve been together for ages. But you can still consider someone special even if you’re relationship/friendship didn’t last that long, right? It’s really a matter of how you VALUE whatever it is that you shared. Believe me, I should know.

To the people concerned, I don’t really care if you plan to stay this way. You can go kill each other for all I care. But before you do that, do hear BOTH sides okay? Without the shouting. Maybe that might just change your minds.

I rest my case. Now analyze that.

Caglo10r

26
Jan

whatever

H After a busy, busy week that highlighted the success of our Genetics Camp and Genetics Week 2006 imbroglio, I’m back online! Gawd, I missed the cyberspace! It’s been a while since I last logged in. Pfft! Yeah, that’s how busy I can get, nyahaha! Anyway, I’ve got a handful to write about, but since I’m in another God-forsaken internet shop with all the DoTA boys around me, I don’t think I can write a blow-by-blow account. I could, but if I want to get out of this place alive (I’m risking possible deafness and a heart attack with all the shouting around me), I’d better make this brief.C_1

Genesoc’s Shining Moment: Hmm, it’s all been done. And the aftermath of the warla events was already chronicled by the genes in their blogs. Yeah, we did it! Wooppeee! Genetics Camp 2006: a first-timer, a success! =p Genetics Week: in my own words, panalo! Mwahaha! I loved the Genoc mascot, and yeah, I don’t care if I stayed up for 27 hours straight (what with all the hellish nights called workshop) - the exhibit was worth every sleepless hour. My term’s almost over, but there’s more to come. Watch out, wahaha!GENESOC: love ko ‘to!

Kummer3_de_tn My Own Shining Moment: Waah! He was there, and I swear my face turned beet-red. I don’t know if it was because of the alcohol, or his presence or maybe both. My heart was thumping 4x the usual, with my face getting redder by the minute. Pfft! I had a good excuse, thanks to the generous amount of that punked juice. We had the usual talk - you know, the talk people have when they don’t see each other for a while (a.k.a. catching up on things). It’s a good thing nobody dared to open the ISSUE, or I would’ve slapped somebody - drunk or not. It was probably the most uncomfortable time we’ve had together (well, at least for me)- pretending to have fun along with everyone else, when in fact, it’s all bullshit deep inside. I don’t know if I should be happy that he was there. Gawd! Who told you to call me?! I already barred your freaking number. Oh yeah, you used another number! You! But then again, I’ve had the chance and I blew it. Whatever it is. I just tell myself everything will be over and done with in a few weeks. Yeah, few weeks to go and sweet mother of God, this is it! I can’t really explain how I feel, or maybe it’s because I don’t feel it yet (whatever it is that I’m supposed to feel). Yeah, I know. It’s so weird I might as well drink myself to death. But no, I’ll live until that fucking day. I’ve always believe that the time you spent with a person is not proportional to the level of how special that person is. Or whatever. My thoughts are already clouded. Many thanks go to these stupid boys who can’t do anything worthwhile in their lives except playing these stupid games. Just don’t shout that much, for crying out loud! Hm

12
Jan

boo!

i don’t know what to do anymore.

i just want this fucking feeling to go away.

make me numb.

now.

09
Jan

bloody

I’ve been hanging out with my best friend, Insomnia, for quite some time now, and though I initially hated the idea, I’ve gotten used to it somehow. It’s funny, because I really don’t have any choice but to put up with her, what with all her bugging until the wee hours of the morning. Oh well, if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em. People, don’t be surprised if I complain about her existense at 4 in the morning. That’s the way our friendship goes.

I’ve been in my perpetually procrastinating self these past few days. I still haven’t finished reading the geisha book (pfft!) what with all the DVD’s I’ve scored at a thrift shop near my place. Still no luck with the updates for my laptop. Not a single draft for my speech on Saturday. And the paint job for my condo - a BIG zilch! Sheesh.

Anyway, I had a blast from the past recently. I wasn’t really prepared for it, which sent me on the verge of hurling a San Mig Light bottle across the room when I found out. Tsktsk. So much for apologies. Really now, after everything, thanks, but no thanks! The thing is, this whole brouhaha makes me laugh. I find it so amusing that I had to smile despite the nagging itch to wring someone’s neck. Oh, do I love to scratch that neck with my long nails - but then again, it’ll just ruin my manicure. Come on, it’s so over and done with. I mean, I can’t believe that after all these months, everything’s making a comeback. Well, hello, hello! Frankly, I don’t really care. But let me tell you: one more word. I’m tired of hearing everything over and over again. I’m so done dealing with a whirlwind of emotions every time I think about it, that I don’t have the time to dwell on them some more. I’m so fed up! So please do yourself a favor and stop it! You’re really not helping. Not helping at all. And if you have any ounce of decency left, you’ll shut up already.

It’s a good thing I had to re-type this whole thing (thanks to that stupid computer shop somewhere in front of the Math building; never again will I set foot on that God-forsaken, slower-than-a-snail Internet shop arggh!) because had I posted the original, hmm, I hate to think about it.

Well of course, I’m going really vague here. I promised myself I won’t name names, unless really necessary. But I’d probably write about this in detail in my private blog somewhere in cyberspace. Then again, maybe not. Whatever.

Question: How do you deal with insipid, nothing-to-do jerks who practically shout their heads off to other insipid, nothing-to-do jerks across the room while playing those goddamn computer games? I mean, gawd! Go find a PRIVATE place where you can discuss your game play with your RPG-cohorts! Better yet, just relive the game in real life and go kill yourselves. Demmit! I really think computer shops who offer these games should at least have an aquarium or a sound-proof portion of their shop - that is, if they still want to have customers who just wanted to surf the net and chronicle their lives in their blogs. So we’re boring people. So what?

I remember a friend who wanted to name his bar Blue Mondays. Hmm, given the chance, I’d probably name it Bloody Monday. And from the shouts of these insipid, nothing-to-do jerks, my ears are already bleeding just fine. Mga pakshet kayo!

At ikaw. Oo, ikaw. That’s enough.

A

05
Jan

geisha meets jang geum

 

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Needless to say, I’ve gone bonkers over Asian epics. The last few weeks of 2005 were spent keeping track with the story of Jang Geum in the now infamous koreanovela, Jewel in the Palace. It’s like Takeshi Castle meets Cooking with the Dazas - that is, less Smokey Manoloto and Lee Kum Kee soy sauce. Pretty interesting, huh?

On the literary side however, I’ve managed to get my hands on that coveted book, Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden. I’ve been hearing raves about it for quite some time, but I’ve been too busy(?) with my so-called life that I’ve never read it until recently. And with the upcoming movie on February (it’s already showing in the States, December pa), it’s a perfect time to read this novel. And let me tell you: it’s a must-read.

I’m not in the mood for major raves and reviews. Maybe some other time.

One thing’s for sure: I’m hooked!!! ( haha! potah!)